Katelyn Frances Kunz 4 months old

I got sick of blogging and realized no one looks at it anymore anyway (especially since I made it private.) Maybe I will un-privatize it? Not sure, maybe...

It has taken me such a long time to be able to have the heart to even refer to my pregnancy and the birth of my little girl. It was so traumatizing and the truth is it all feels like a dream. Whenever the thoughts creep into my mind I have to stop for a minute and ask myself if it all really happened. How could all this have happened? But it did, and I am sure to think of it will hurt less and less as time goes on.

But...what I was realizing today is that I need to blog occasionally for me and my little family, not for others to read!! It has been our family journal since Conner was born, and the things I wrote down and the pictures I posted of him are priceless memories that we can have forever. I don't really keep a written journal and I dislike scrapbooking VERY much, but so much happens in our family every day and I don't want to miss it or forget any of it.

Now without further adieu here are a few little tidbits about Kate, Katie, Katelyn, Kit, Baby Kate, "Pretty Pony" (as Conner likes to call her) - just whatever we feel like calling her at that moment. I suppose she will decide what she likes best when she is older, she sure has a lot to choose from!

Baby Kate is now 4 months old!

She is darling. She is the sweetest baby you have ever seen. She has stunningly beautiful, sparkling blue eyes and her smile is going to be like Corey's, irresistible. I think she even has a dimple on her right cheek, oh my word I am obsessed.

She almost NEVER cries. But has had a couple bad episodes of tummy cramps and she gets so upset and sad. She and Conner have both had tummy issues as babies but hers are not nearly as bad as Conner's were.

She loves to be held. At first she slept all the time but now she gets pretty anxious for attention and doesn't like to chill in her bouncer for extended periods of time like she used to. She wants to be held and spoken to.

She continues to be the neighborhood doll. We have neighbors who literally come and ask to hold her daily.

I am so blessed because she has been sleeping thru the night for two months now. She goes to bed around ten and sleeps till about eight.

I am not very organized about her naps since I have a four year old who is awake all day I would rather have them both sleeping thru the night than have her nap a ton during the day.

She of course wakes occasionally for her binky to be replaced but not too often.

She and I have a lot of special time together where we just go into her room alone and rock in the rocking chair. I just love to cuddle her and have this special one on one time with her. We read, we talk, we sing...just me and her time. I have spent my fair share of time feeling rather sorry for myself that we cannot have more children, and tho I still feel sad about it my cousin Sarah and my aunt Patty have both given me some other ways to look at my situation. My cousin Sarah told me she thought I was really lucky to know that Kate is my last because I can take the time to enjoy every second of her being a baby rather than being eager for her to grow and do more things for herself like hold her own bottle and sleep thru the night etc.

She was right and I try to cherish every moment I have with her. I don't even like to let other people feed her her bottle because I just want to hold her close for as long as I can.

At first everyone said she looked like me, but now that she is filling out I hear she looks like Conner. I love hearing that because I think Conner is the most handsome boy I have ever seen.

Those are just a few little things about our little one!